If you knew your mom’s lying to you but she doesn’t admit that she is, what will you do?
I’ve been keeping my doubts for weeks, coming up with arguments supporting both sides of the coin. Today, I’ve finally decided that she was lying and so I confronted her. I called her phone in rage. I raised my voice. I was just hoping she’d say the truth. But the more she held on to her lie, the angrier I became. She hasn’t finished talking when I dropped the call. A few seconds later, she called to defend herself. I still wasn’t convinced so I dropped the call again.
This is the first time in more than a decade that I talked to my mom so harshly. When my dad first left us when I was 14, I promised myself never to upset her because she doesn’t deserve it. Being the only one who supports the family, it was unfair of me to cause her heartaches. So I did my best to fulfill my promise. I also tried not to get into fights with my brothers and acted like a mother to them to lessen my mom’s burden at home.
So now, you get why I also hurt myself with what I did. Though I know she wasn’t telling truth, it doesn’t justify what I did. I literally feel bad. I think I’m going to get sick. And if I were a little more religious, I’d say that the strong winds that followed our short phone “conversation” was God telling me that I was wrong.